Now I never meant,
To do you wrong,
That’s what I came here to say.

But if I was wrong,
Then I’m sorry,
I don’t let it stand in our way.

As my head just aches,
When I think of,
The things that I shouldn’t have done.

But, life is for living,
We all know,
And I don’t wanna live it alone.

I think there’s a big big misunderstanding between both of us. For some reason things have escalate to a point of no return. I don’t understand about the resentments you have for me maybe because simply we just don’t talk. Perhaps its a mystery that we both would never know the truth behind what we did. We can only assume what he/she think. I know what it takes to learn to let go and i’m letting all emotion go and set free myself, for i don’t blame anyone of us.  I just hope we still can be friends.

Ps: i hope you don’t mistaken the meaning of the song i post. i’m just apologizing for what ever have happen because live is for living.

Work haven’t been good this year.. in fact i am thinking that its getting worst as i stay on longer. Not being appreciated at work by the upper management isnt something that any emplyee want.. Oh well i need to stay on to accomplish a greater me.

Well 2011 have been a really tough one for me.. struggling work and studies and relationship.. i guess the greatest lost i ever had was breaking up with my girlfriend. I think i have to let her go and thats becos i love her and i want her to be happy. She seems to be enjoying herself and very happy now. i hope it will stay like this for her forever. Happy, simple and carefree. I hope my departure will bring happiness to her. to forget me or nt, i don’t know but its up to her. But i know i wun. I’ve learnt so much about relationship and LOVE itself. i’ve learnt a lot about myself during this down time and now its time for me to bounce back after i hit rock bottom.

Of cos i have to thank all the people around me, even to people who have just come into my life by chance and left a little bit of impression in me. My friends are the one’s i especially want to thank. without them i think i would still be a rock stucking at the bottom of the well. they taught me to be a ball and bounce back when i hit rock bottom. Andy, doreen, fadzli, lee yen, becky, farhan, yeewen, how can i live without them in my life. We have been brought together by chance or by fate and stay with each other till who knows when.

2012…? I hope the world don’t end. i will not drink as much. i will take very good care of my health (health isnt good at all this year). i  want to change myself. i want to be myself. I want to better myself. i don’t think i’m going into another r/s soon and probably i’m not ready.I am gonna get my degree.

I wish everyone a very happy and healthy 2012!

This will probably mark the end of the guy with a broken jeans on this very last day of 2011. The guy will move to another blog. Marking the end of his old him, putting behind all the past and moving on. What ever happen in the past shall stay in 2011. Moving on and never gonna look back. Good bye to anyone who still remember me or bother. 2012 will be a better year.

When I close my eyes I think of you
And the times we’ve had been through
Even though we’re far apart right now

I remember back when you were here with me
How you’ve made my world complete
But now I’m left alone

We talked about love and hope
Wishing we could start a life our own
I wish that I could live without you

# Why did you tear my heart apart
You said you’d love me from the start
All those painful things you’ve put me through
But I’m still loving you

I’ve tried to give my best to you
I don’t deserve the things you do
Everything has gone to memories
I just wish I knew the truth behind the lies.

I hope you are doing well.

and whats the purpose? to get as much well wishes as possible for this year ! I need them! haha and to my surprise when the clock strike 12 and by 1am i already have 20 wishes !! All thanks to my campaign! hahaha

Early morning i was greeted by Becky‘s very sarcastic and funny greetings lol! She’s really funny never fail to make me laugh out loud! She’s another girl that i never thought we would be this close with too! She use to be an intern at my work place and somehow because we work with each other so frequently that we got so close together. She even listens to me give me advices and support when she herself have lost someone she love so dearly.. I hope she find someone who loves her as much as she do soon too.

went to office early today even though its my brithday (i still work sadly) and found this on my desk! My first and probably the only birthday present this year! Its nth fancy just a pen with multiple colors! Really appreciate it yeewen! and thank you!! Really have to thank her for everything! Never really expect to be this close to her like we were best friend already ! lol she have been giving me advices, listening and tolerating my nonsensical stuff during this period of time when i fell out of love.. and of cos the ridiculous amount of design she need me to come out with in such a short notice haha but i am good at my work. ALWAYS IN TIME! haha

After lunch i made this in office! I’m glad i made every one laugh ! I design everything for my birthday! who would do that?! Only me i suppose! hahaha everyone had a good laugh! So proud of myself Haha! Not forgetting a present from army! lOL party popper! LOL

Got myself a cranberry white chocolate cheese cake while waiting for fadz doreen andy and leeyen to come over for dinner. How can a birthday have got no cake?! lol I always belive in having a cake ! after that we head down to somewhere in tj pargar for korean bbq ! lots of talking and joking ard and gotta thanks andy for the brithday gift lol as he know that i know that i am aiming for 100 birthday wishes this year he thought that he could help me with just 1 when i was a 98!

Its all fun and joke. I know that i have been rather annoying when i go to most of my closes friend when i needed to talk to someone and yet they do not distant me away and for the opposite they stand by me. I am really greatful for all the friends i have made. i thought this year will be as lonely as 2 years ago because my girlfriend left me just 2 months ago.. Even though i still misses her and cares abt her.. there’s only this much i can do.. just quietly stand by her. My friends are always there for me. No doubt! with all the 110 well wishes i have collected over the span of 24 hrs I believe in what i do for people still. i like to help people and thats just me. i will still continue to help everyone who comes to me for help. Because i know i have helpped them in one way or another and they remembers me. I don’t help ppl because i want something in return. nothing of that sort. purely just me to help ppl. 110 friends from secondary school to poly to army to work everyone wishes me well and wanted me to stay well too. For them and for myself i will stay strong and stay well. i will. Btw i love my family. they made me an birthday egg!

Its not red though but i appreciate it I had almost everything i wanted for my birthday this year and i am really very happy. For all the wishes i have it made me feel stronger. Thank you all my friends! I love you all and i wil never forget you guys!

i got bored and decided to do something silly for myself haha!

the most embarrassing thing i ever did to myself LOL!

I’M POSTING THIS ON FACEBOOK AND TWITTER!

So if you are someone somewhere in this world who randomly click on the random post and saw this and so happen you got a twitter acct.

Please wish me a happy birthday! lol!

When reading the book i nod my head in agreement and wonder why is all this so true. From chapter six onwards i couldn’t believe it that all that was mention actually happened to us. I come to understand that how different we both are and how little understanding between both parties can help grow. The way each both men and women needed love in different ways we have to understand that we are 2 different people even though we could have the same believes, hobby and character. Now i finally understand why you did everything and hope you understand why i did wad i did. The book is so true about me. The key: Understanding and acceptance of each other differences will only strengthen and foster their relationship. Man are like rubber bands haha thats so true. Everyday i’m understanding every little bit of you and a little bit of me. I know what i really want now.  OK i shall stop here and continue when i get home and before any of my bosses caught me blogging ! haha See ya! Stay happy!

着不是你也不是我的错.
读着读着我也慢慢的了解为什么着些事会发身.
希望你不要放弃我, 我也不会放弃你因为你是值得的.
我也相信你..

Jaeson 你真傻 …